Today has been crazy, awesome, and stressful! It was stressful this morning as I woke up extremely late for class. I did not have time to get a shower. I left for class at the same time I was supposed to be there and it was on my way to class that I realized that I did not have my new power points printed out for class. So, I went to the printers in the computer lab only to find out that I have no money on my card whatsoever. Then, I went to an organization's computer lab that I am a part of that I can print off things for free only to find out that the printer is out of order. I am now making my way back to class and run into one of my friends and he asks what is wrong with me and I tell him about my morning and how I am now 15 minutes late for class. He went on to encourage me. :) Praise the Lord for great friends!
I get to class around 9:20 and my teacher is of course already lecturing and then my heart starts messing up, which is more than likely due to the stress that was building up in me and then I also remember I have not taken my medication. All of this made me realize that this is probably the reason I am getting medicated. haha!
Then, I was able to calm down and start taking notes. But then I realized how long of a day i was going to have today. I had so much studying to do for my test that is tomorrow on the liver. Like I want to learn about the liver?!? Haha! I took notes for a little while, but I needed to get my focus right so I pulled out my Bible and read James 1. Then, I started talking to another friend of mine and he told me that I just needed to relax and suggested I go to Lake LU to just chill. When class got out, I went there and just walked around and talked with God. God put me in my place today on multiple occasions. I am so thankful for that!
While I standing and walking around at the lake, I noticed that the clouds were moving across the sun rather fast. The shadows kept going and coming over my head and I realized how much God really and truly is in control of every single thing in my life!! He is the only one who can move the clouds, make the wind, make the rain fall, and countless other things. It is so awesome to think that He has the WHOLE WORLD in HIS HANDS!!! I do not need to worry, fret, fuss, get angry, get stressed, or anything in my life because He has it all!! The purpose of my life on this earth is for two reasons: 1-To know God 2- To make God known!! Those are the only reasons of why I was placed on this earth. Nothing more and nothing less.
It is so easy to forget these two things though. I wish it were not this way and that was my focus every second of everyday, but it is not. I am just being honest. You know that it is not your focus either. I am sinner and I tend to forget about things. Like Sunday, I forgot my nursing uniforms for the week at home. I mean, I am nursing student who has clinicals every week. I should not forget things like that, but I did. So, I had to meet my parents in Thomasville to get them. Even though nursing uniforms are nothing in comparison to my relationship with Jesus, I am relating it to how important it is to forget the necessities of our relationship with God. 1-Know Him. 2-Make Him known.
I was thankful for the time I was able to spend there. I then went on to the library to study and ran errands. Then, the rain came down on me out of no where. I got out of my car to send the last of money off for my upcoming mission trip and there was a perfect rainbow. End to end. All the colors. And I just stopped and stood in awe of God. Through all the trials, tribulations, and tests..His promises still remain the same. How awesome is that?!?! God promises never to leave or forsake us, no matter what. He is with you wherever you go, in whatever you do..we so easily forget that. We get so consumed in ourselves that we forget about God. It is not about us at all, it is all about Him! Nothing or no one else, just God!
Today has been fun! It is amazing how God uses the littlest of things to teach us. Thank you Lord!
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Monday, November 15, 2010
Healer
You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk me through the fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in You
I trust in You
I believe
You're my Healer
I believe
You are all I need
I believe
You're my portion
I believe
You're more than enough for me
Jesus, You're more than enough for me
Nothing is impossible for you
Nothing is impossible
Nothing is impossible for you
You hold my world in Your hands
"Healer" by Hillsong.
These words are so true.
You calm my raging seas
You walk me through the fire
And heal all my disease
I trust in You
I trust in You
I believe
You're my Healer
I believe
You are all I need
I believe
You're my portion
I believe
You're more than enough for me
Jesus, You're more than enough for me
Nothing is impossible for you
Nothing is impossible
Nothing is impossible for you
You hold my world in Your hands
"Healer" by Hillsong.
These words are so true.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
What would you do?
So, a lot has been and is going on in my life these days. I have been facing trials and going through things that most 20 year olds do not experience.
First of all, I am in nursing school and working two jobs. Being in nursing school alone is a big deal in it's self. More power to the men and women in school who are married and have families! I do not know how they do it.
Second of all, I am failing nursing school! Ha! Not a part of my plan..but God has the ultimate plan for my life. I am fully and truly at peace and not stressed out anymore about the whole situation. There is reason behind every single thing that happens or does not happen to you in life. So, if you know that God is in control of everything, then why stress? Right?
Third of all, I ended a relationship of 3 and 1/2 years with one of my best friends. Who thought you could ever be at peace and not upset about having to end the relationship with the person you love? This would be a huge deal to most people, but if you know God is in control of everything in your life..why make it a big deal and get upset? I am not saying that this is not a hard thing to deal with because you are now left with all the memories you share together and time you have spent with one another. You are also left thinking, why did God allow us to be together so long just let you end the relationship? There is also the question of why did it take so long to find out that you are not meant to be with one another? If you know you are not supposed to be someone, end it. This was also not a part of my plan for my life. But, I know that I can learn from the things we had in our relationship and use them in the future.
Lastly, I have been having some problems with my heart. It is something that I have had since I was 5 years old and never been given a diagnosis for it. Things have been getting worse and worse with it and my family doctor has been pretty concerned with me and now I will be sent to Birmingham to a new cardiologist and also an electrophysiologist. What has been done so far is that I have been placed on aspirin everyday along with blood pressure medicine. What else is to come of this situation? Only the Lord knows! But, the big thing right now with this is trying to get things fixed before I leave the country in December.
So, all in all God is in control of my life and I have absolutely no doubts in my mind about it!! God is sovereign and Lord of all! My relationship with God has grown and matured in the last few months and you know what??-This is all a part of His wonderful plan for my life! I believe that my relationship has been maturing and growing with God because He is preparing me for my time out of the country and things I will face while I am there. I am learning to trust God more and more with my life. Many of my friendships with other people have grown due to everything going on in my life. All I can do right now is thank God for all the blessings He has given me that I most definitely do not deserve and for amazing grace and mercy.
I thank the Lord for all things are going on in my life. I KNOW HE has a purpose for everything and I am really and truly trying to count it all joy! :)
"But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
"Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. Be rejoice insofar as yous hare Christ's sufferings that you may also rejoice and be glad when His glory is revealed." 1 Peter 4:12-13
First of all, I am in nursing school and working two jobs. Being in nursing school alone is a big deal in it's self. More power to the men and women in school who are married and have families! I do not know how they do it.
Second of all, I am failing nursing school! Ha! Not a part of my plan..but God has the ultimate plan for my life. I am fully and truly at peace and not stressed out anymore about the whole situation. There is reason behind every single thing that happens or does not happen to you in life. So, if you know that God is in control of everything, then why stress? Right?
Third of all, I ended a relationship of 3 and 1/2 years with one of my best friends. Who thought you could ever be at peace and not upset about having to end the relationship with the person you love? This would be a huge deal to most people, but if you know God is in control of everything in your life..why make it a big deal and get upset? I am not saying that this is not a hard thing to deal with because you are now left with all the memories you share together and time you have spent with one another. You are also left thinking, why did God allow us to be together so long just let you end the relationship? There is also the question of why did it take so long to find out that you are not meant to be with one another? If you know you are not supposed to be someone, end it. This was also not a part of my plan for my life. But, I know that I can learn from the things we had in our relationship and use them in the future.
Lastly, I have been having some problems with my heart. It is something that I have had since I was 5 years old and never been given a diagnosis for it. Things have been getting worse and worse with it and my family doctor has been pretty concerned with me and now I will be sent to Birmingham to a new cardiologist and also an electrophysiologist. What has been done so far is that I have been placed on aspirin everyday along with blood pressure medicine. What else is to come of this situation? Only the Lord knows! But, the big thing right now with this is trying to get things fixed before I leave the country in December.
So, all in all God is in control of my life and I have absolutely no doubts in my mind about it!! God is sovereign and Lord of all! My relationship with God has grown and matured in the last few months and you know what??-This is all a part of His wonderful plan for my life! I believe that my relationship has been maturing and growing with God because He is preparing me for my time out of the country and things I will face while I am there. I am learning to trust God more and more with my life. Many of my friendships with other people have grown due to everything going on in my life. All I can do right now is thank God for all the blessings He has given me that I most definitely do not deserve and for amazing grace and mercy.
I thank the Lord for all things are going on in my life. I KNOW HE has a purpose for everything and I am really and truly trying to count it all joy! :)
"But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
"Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. Be rejoice insofar as yous hare Christ's sufferings that you may also rejoice and be glad when His glory is revealed." 1 Peter 4:12-13
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
If only I could say that..
1 Corinthians 11:1
"Be imitators of me, as I am of Christ."
I was reading chapter 10 of this book tonight and the verse above was kind of connected to it. When I read it I was like, "WOW! I want to be able to say that to someone." Paul wrote this book of the Bible and totally devoted to Christ. He was unashamed of Him and boldly lived his life for our God. And he know that he was so in sync with God that he told others to live like him because he was of Christ. This in turn means that he was "souled out" for Christ and that is very evident of Paul. I want to be able to tell someone, "Hey, you know, you should be like me because I am living souly and radically for my God."
Another verse that spoke to me tonight is 1 Corinthians 10:31. "So whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God."
No matter what we do in our daily lives we are supposed to glorify God. Anything that does not glorify God is sin! So WHATEVER we do, we are to glorify God!!!
My college group has a saying called "G3!" G3 means Give God Glory!- G3! :)
Anyways, I will stop babbling. I just wanted to blog about this. :)
Have a great night.
-MaeLee
"Be imitators of me, as I am of Christ."
I was reading chapter 10 of this book tonight and the verse above was kind of connected to it. When I read it I was like, "WOW! I want to be able to say that to someone." Paul wrote this book of the Bible and totally devoted to Christ. He was unashamed of Him and boldly lived his life for our God. And he know that he was so in sync with God that he told others to live like him because he was of Christ. This in turn means that he was "souled out" for Christ and that is very evident of Paul. I want to be able to tell someone, "Hey, you know, you should be like me because I am living souly and radically for my God."
Another verse that spoke to me tonight is 1 Corinthians 10:31. "So whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God."
No matter what we do in our daily lives we are supposed to glorify God. Anything that does not glorify God is sin! So WHATEVER we do, we are to glorify God!!!
My college group has a saying called "G3!" G3 means Give God Glory!- G3! :)
Anyways, I will stop babbling. I just wanted to blog about this. :)
Have a great night.
-MaeLee
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
It should all be about Him..
Okay, so I know no one probably ever reads my blogs, but I feel that this is how I express my feelings that I keep inside all of the time.
Little do a lot of people know, but nursing school takes a toll on me and probably every other nursing student. If you have ever read any of my other blogs, then you would see that I dwell on nursing school a lot. It is not because that is my only concern or b/c I hate it SOO much. It is just that it consumes my life and my every being...unfortunately. It at least seems that way these days. Like I said in my previous blog, this is the first time I have ever taken summer classes. I am only taking one class, but it is 6 credit hours. Just because it is 6 credit hours doesn't mean a thing. It actually takes up 9 hours of class time per week and 12 hours of clinical time per week. A grand total of 21 hours of my week Monday-Friday. Now, ain't that something. That doesn't include the time I need for studying and homework(careplans)! We have skills checkoffs, which I have passed the first two!(IVs and dosage) Our careplans are graded, but not calculated into our grade, but if you don't pass them then you fail nursing. Our skills checkoffs are graded, but not calculated into our grade, but if you don't pass them then you fail nursing. So, you are left with 5 module tests and a final. An 80 is passing with a C. Anything lower than that is failing. Oh!, my clinical hospital is 1 1/2 hours away one way. So, I go there 3 times a week and that equals up to 9 hours of driving on the road per week!
So, is nursing hard? Yes!! It is hard. It is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life! Oh, and did I mention that I have 2 jobs?!?!
My stress load is HUGE!!!! I have test tomorrow morning and I am about to get back to studying for it. It will be a long night and an early morning for me. But, my goal is make a 92 or better. My treat for myself if I do well on this test is a ticket to see "Eclipse" Thursday night. Please pray that God allows me to remember the things I need to remember for this test and that He is glorified through it all. Also, please pray that I stop complaining so much about nursing school and learn to suck it up. It should all be about the Lord and nothing or no one else. You guys have a great night!
Little do a lot of people know, but nursing school takes a toll on me and probably every other nursing student. If you have ever read any of my other blogs, then you would see that I dwell on nursing school a lot. It is not because that is my only concern or b/c I hate it SOO much. It is just that it consumes my life and my every being...unfortunately. It at least seems that way these days. Like I said in my previous blog, this is the first time I have ever taken summer classes. I am only taking one class, but it is 6 credit hours. Just because it is 6 credit hours doesn't mean a thing. It actually takes up 9 hours of class time per week and 12 hours of clinical time per week. A grand total of 21 hours of my week Monday-Friday. Now, ain't that something. That doesn't include the time I need for studying and homework(careplans)! We have skills checkoffs, which I have passed the first two!(IVs and dosage) Our careplans are graded, but not calculated into our grade, but if you don't pass them then you fail nursing. Our skills checkoffs are graded, but not calculated into our grade, but if you don't pass them then you fail nursing. So, you are left with 5 module tests and a final. An 80 is passing with a C. Anything lower than that is failing. Oh!, my clinical hospital is 1 1/2 hours away one way. So, I go there 3 times a week and that equals up to 9 hours of driving on the road per week!
So, is nursing hard? Yes!! It is hard. It is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life! Oh, and did I mention that I have 2 jobs?!?!
My stress load is HUGE!!!! I have test tomorrow morning and I am about to get back to studying for it. It will be a long night and an early morning for me. But, my goal is make a 92 or better. My treat for myself if I do well on this test is a ticket to see "Eclipse" Thursday night. Please pray that God allows me to remember the things I need to remember for this test and that He is glorified through it all. Also, please pray that I stop complaining so much about nursing school and learn to suck it up. It should all be about the Lord and nothing or no one else. You guys have a great night!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
And The Summer Begins...
Hey you guys!
Summer classes have started for me and the rest of the university. This is my very first time ever taking summer classes and trust me, its ONLY because the nursing program requires it. This summer will definitely be intense for me and the rest of my classmates because we have a test every week plus checking off on different skills and clinicals. I am also excited about this summer at the time because we get to spend 3 weeks in the OB/nursery unit in clinicals. I am excited about this because this is the part of nursing that I want to go into.
Pray for me!!!
Summer classes have started for me and the rest of the university. This is my very first time ever taking summer classes and trust me, its ONLY because the nursing program requires it. This summer will definitely be intense for me and the rest of my classmates because we have a test every week plus checking off on different skills and clinicals. I am also excited about this summer at the time because we get to spend 3 weeks in the OB/nursery unit in clinicals. I am excited about this because this is the part of nursing that I want to go into.
Pray for me!!!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
To God Be The Glory!
So, I have not posted anything on here in a few months and I have decided to add something tonight. :)
This semester of school is almost over for me and it has flown by when I look at in hindsight. It has been really tough on me though. As of right now my future is not certain that I will be at UWA in the summer b/c my nursing grade is border line. I wish it wasn't, but I can't change it now. It is ALL in God's hands. I have made back-up plans if all else fails, literally.
Because of all that I have been fairly stressed about, as would anyone else. I am just trying to be really positive about it all and have faith in God.
All I have been doing this semester is school, school, babysitting some, and MORE school. I feel like I study all the time. I got a new job today and I will be working with UWA starting next week. Whoo hoo!! Praise the Lord!! :))
Yesterday marked 3 years for Wes and I meeting each other. That was a pretty awesome day in 2007. I remember exactly what he was wearing and what was said. We had a discussion about how we met last night. He is a pretty amazing guy that I love dearly. He looked me up on facebook after we met and the rest is history. I actually gave him my phone number without him asking for it, imagine that! God truly blessed my life the day He allowed me to meet Wes. :)
I am getting so, so excited about my mission trip to Quito, Ecuador!!! I am so ready to see what the Lord has in store for me there. I am going to be doing VBS with about 60 kids everyday and I will be teaching and leading music in Spanish. Please pray for me dealing with that.
But anyways, I will write more later. Have a great night/day!
Grace and Peace-Psalm 37:4
This semester of school is almost over for me and it has flown by when I look at in hindsight. It has been really tough on me though. As of right now my future is not certain that I will be at UWA in the summer b/c my nursing grade is border line. I wish it wasn't, but I can't change it now. It is ALL in God's hands. I have made back-up plans if all else fails, literally.
Because of all that I have been fairly stressed about, as would anyone else. I am just trying to be really positive about it all and have faith in God.
All I have been doing this semester is school, school, babysitting some, and MORE school. I feel like I study all the time. I got a new job today and I will be working with UWA starting next week. Whoo hoo!! Praise the Lord!! :))
Yesterday marked 3 years for Wes and I meeting each other. That was a pretty awesome day in 2007. I remember exactly what he was wearing and what was said. We had a discussion about how we met last night. He is a pretty amazing guy that I love dearly. He looked me up on facebook after we met and the rest is history. I actually gave him my phone number without him asking for it, imagine that! God truly blessed my life the day He allowed me to meet Wes. :)
I am getting so, so excited about my mission trip to Quito, Ecuador!!! I am so ready to see what the Lord has in store for me there. I am going to be doing VBS with about 60 kids everyday and I will be teaching and leading music in Spanish. Please pray for me dealing with that.
But anyways, I will write more later. Have a great night/day!
Grace and Peace-Psalm 37:4
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