What would you do?

So, a lot has been and is going on in my life these days. I have been facing trials and going through things that most 20 year olds do not experience.
First of all, I am in nursing school and working two jobs. Being in nursing school alone is a big deal in it's self. More power to the men and women in school who are married and have families! I do not know how they do it.
Second of all, I am failing nursing school! Ha! Not a part of my plan..but God has the ultimate plan for my life. I am fully and truly at peace and not stressed out anymore about the whole situation. There is reason behind every single thing that happens or does not happen to you in life. So, if you know that God is in control of everything, then why stress? Right?
Third of all, I ended a relationship of 3 and 1/2 years with one of my best friends. Who thought you could ever be at peace and not upset about having to end the relationship with the person you love? This would be a huge deal to most people, but if you know God is in control of everything in your life..why make it a big deal and get upset? I am not saying that this is not a hard thing to deal with because you are now left with all the memories you share together and time you have spent with one another. You are also left thinking, why did God allow us to be together so long just let you end the relationship? There is also the question of why did it take so long to find out that you are not meant to be with one another? If you know you are not supposed to be someone, end it. This was also not a part of my plan for my life. But, I know that I can learn from the things we had in our relationship and use them in the future.
Lastly, I have been having some problems with my heart. It is something that I have had since I was 5 years old and never been given a diagnosis for it. Things have been getting worse and worse with it and my family doctor has been pretty concerned with me and now I will be sent to Birmingham to a new cardiologist and also an electrophysiologist. What has been done so far is that I have been placed on aspirin everyday along with blood pressure medicine. What else is to come of this situation? Only the Lord knows! But, the big thing right now with this is trying to get things fixed before I leave the country in December.
So, all in all God is in control of my life and I have absolutely no doubts in my mind about it!! God is sovereign and Lord of all! My relationship with God has grown and matured in the last few months and you know what??-This is all a part of His wonderful plan for my life! I believe that my relationship has been maturing and growing with God because He is preparing me for my time out of the country and things I will face while I am there. I am learning to trust God more and more with my life. Many of my friendships with other people have grown due to everything going on in my life. All I can do right now is thank God for all the blessings He has given me that I most definitely do not deserve and for amazing grace and mercy.
I thank the Lord for all things are going on in my life. I KNOW HE has a purpose for everything and I am really and truly trying to count it all joy! :)


"But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
"Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. Be rejoice insofar as yous hare Christ's sufferings that you may also rejoice and be glad when His glory is revealed." 1 Peter 4:12-13