One of those days

Have you ever just needed to get away from everyone? Have you ever needed to just be with God and only Him? Have you ever felt like an epic fail? Well, I can answer yes to all of these questions.

I have been spending a lot of time with people and do not get me wrong, I love being with people, talking, and just fellowshipping. But sometimes I just need to be by myself and recharge my batteries. I could feel this coming on this week because I have been going non-stop since I got back in the country. I have been spending time with family and friends, going to school, working, babysitting, and speaking at different places. I kind of feel like I have not really soaked everything in from China and had time to write down all these things God has been revealing to me and just spend good quality time with Him.

Also, I was talking to a friend about music that they like. This person said that they only listen to Christian music and I asked why. They answered with this: "So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God." 1 Corinthians 10:31. This verse hit me like a ton of bricks. I was immediately drawn to my memory of a situation in China. One Wednesday afternoon my team gathered together with some American English teachers to have worship and then hang out with some university students. That evening I was able to share the Gospel with a girl named Tibby. Tibby believed in Darwinism and I showed her what God's Word said. We had a pretty lengthy conversation about everything and she asked some pretty deep questions. After our conversation, we started singing and playing different songs together with the rest of the group. She then asked me to type in her phone who my favorite music artists are. So, I did. If I would have had this conversation with my friend before I left for the states then I would have never put the names in her phone that I did. I listed some Christian artists, but not all of them were. The music we listen to should bring glory to God. Everything we say, do, think, eat, and drink should be meant to bring glory to God.

And this evening I watched the worst movie I believe I have ever seen. It is my own fault though. All I really knew about the movie was that it had Ashton Kutcher in it and it was rated R. I should have never dropped my standard of not watching R rated movies. Never again will that happen.

So, I came to the realization that I am an epic fail and I need God desperately. I left the theater, came back to my place, got my stuff, and left for a couple hours. I turned my phone off and just drove and got alone with God. I really needed to do that. I am so thankful for a loving, merciful, and awesome God!! Without Him, I would be completely lost and not where I am today.